March 30, 2006

Fresh bread


Reynald's Bible
Originally uploaded by
lil aNNa.
If you are hungry then there is not much else more satisfying that some fresh bread. If its just been cooked then I'll eat it without even putting butter or anything else on it

Food is something we need, but its also interesting and exciting, its something to be enjoyed. Jesus must of thought it was important as he did several miracles with food and wine. There are also many accounts of Jesus meeting with others around the dinner table. Still Jesus' own words show that there is something much more important that food.

"People need more than bread for their life; they must feed on every word of God." Matthew 4:4

As much as food is important to our survival, the word of God is even more important! The living bread is crucial to our survival. We will die unless we're getting fed. When we're hungry and starving, it doesn't take us long to remember 'oh I didn't eat breakfast this morning' and go and get some food. But for some reason when we get spiritual hunger pains, it can take a while before we do go and feed. We don't need to be force feeding ourselves, we just need to realize that this bread is interesting and exciting. God's words aren't any old bread, no matter how old they are they will never get stale. They will always be fresh! How cool is that!

For myself my consumption is still more like nibbling, but really I'm starting to get more hungry. I'm also realizing different things in my life, are in fact hunger pains telling me I need to eat more.


Road


Road
Originally uploaded by Aaron Dieppa.
The guy that took this photo also has an inspirational faith.

faithnotsight57.blogspot.com

From the family of an Indian Christian killed

I originally posted the prayer below almost 2 years ago and reading it again I find myself moved by it even more now. It really does speak to me because I feel like now I'm desperate for a breakthrough ... but for that to happen something has to break!

I asked for strength -- and God gave me difficulties to make me strong

I asked for wisdom -- and God gave me problems to solve

I asked for prosperity -- and God gave me brain and brawn to work

I asked for courage -- and God gave me dangers to overcome

I asked for love -- and God gave me opportunities

I received nothing I wanted -- I received everything I needed

My prayer has been answered

March 21, 2006

Dare to be Different


is perrier straight?
Originally uploaded by lil aNNa.
Interesting advertisement ... Not exactly sure what they're getting at there, but I like the PINK ;) Maybe they're making a statement, that pink can now no longer be associated with girliness ... or being gay.
Some people are still dead set against guys wearing pink, others simply don't like the colour. I myself didn't really like the colour that long ago, but at the moment I seem to like it.

It is amazing how things change over time, how some things become acceptable and other things become taboo. It has now become acceptable for guys to like pink and to wear pink, but it has become taboo to share your faith with someone. It does make me think a bit though, now I'm happy to stand up and say I like pink because not many people are going to bash me for that, but to get up and tell people how cool Jesus is, I will think twice because thats likely to get me into an uncomfortable position.

I might be confident enough of who I am as man to proclaim "I love pink and I'm not ashamed of it" but I'm sad to say there are times when I'm not confident enough of who I am (in God) to proclaim "I love Jesus and I'm not ashamed of it!"
Its easy for me go along with what is publicly acceptable, but since when has God called me to simply fit the mould and expectations of the world. And how could I be ashamed of Christ, after all the shame he took on my behalf. God is not even ashamed of us, in spite of what we have done to defame his name!

There have been many times I've prayed to be more like Christ, but haven't been ready to be persecuted to even a fraction of the extent that Christ was. I end up just doing the little things that aren't going to draw too much attention, or even just do the things around people I know expect that from me. But God didn't make me just to fit in and do the acceptable, He called me for more than that.

Two questions on a website got me thinking "Are you willing to be expendable for Christ?" "Are you willing to count not your life dear unto yourself?"
I want to be ... I want to not care about my reputation ... I don't want to hold onto what I have at the moment, but right now I'm needing God's help to do that. For my life to really count ... I need to give up the little that I have. Its wierd though how I can cling onto something that really has no worth when its in my hands.

"If any of you wants to be my follower," he told them, "you must put aside your selfish ambition, shoulder your cross, and follow me. If you try to keep your life for yourself, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake and for the sake of the Good News, you will find true life. And how do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul in the process? Is anything worth more than your soul? If a person is ashamed of me and my message in these adulterous and sinful days, I, the Son of Man, will be ashamed of that person when I return in the glory of my Father with the holy angels."
Mark 8:34b-38

March 18, 2006

iSolating


Live it UP!
Originally uploaded by lil aNNa.
There is no doubt that iPods are here to stay, they're a beautiful piece of equipment, I use something similar called and iRiver, which suits me better than and iPod. But no matter what your preference is ... there are alot of these babies around. Because of its ease to carry and to play music, people will take it and listen to it anywhere they go. But I wondered the other day what effect are these having on our society? Are people closing themselves off to the world even more and more. Now when you go outside, go for a run, or sit on a bus, you limit your interaction with people.

I love listening to my portable music device, and I love being able to listen to worship music, sometimes it makes me feel good, sometimes God speaks to me, but should I be relying on my iPod-like device. I'm wondering whether just talking to somebody on the bus would allow me to worship God. Or would that be 'true worship'
I see nothing wrong with chilling out to worship music or any music for that matter, but am I giving myself an easy way out by iSolating my self with some music, rather than engaging in a conversation with someone on a bus.
I don't think there is one answer ... its more like a bunch of ponderings... and the one conclusion I have come to is that I need to commune with God more than I am, but also commune with others more than I am, rather than just being inward focused and selfish. Whether its listening to my iRiver/iPod or its chatting to the person next to me. I should be doing it for the glory of God.

February 24, 2006

just the cutest


Happy Girl
Originally uploaded by lil aNNa.
This is not my picture, but when I came across it in flickr I was totally in awe, God is so awesome in the way he creates each individual, she really is a cutey!! it takes something to capture a picture like this, but it takes even more to create a human being like this

February 21, 2006

analytical

I was at my home church (having just come back to OZ) and was listening to the sermon ... and I realized that I had an unhealthy habit ... that was, I often find myself analyzing the message or analyzing the speaker giving the message, instead of allowing the Holy Spirit to use the message to analyze ME!

The Scriptures do tell us to guard against false prophets, and to check everything back to the Word of God, so analyzing what is being said to us is in fact wise. However nowhere in Scripture does it tell us to focus on the flaws of another's character or the little problems with their sermon delivery. Really the scriptures cleary warn against thinking of ourselves better than another. And when we do this we block the Holy Spirit from really searching us and working in us.

It goes both ways, we need to be ready to accept God's hand in our lives no matter through who it is, no matter what we may think of them, no matter how many things we see that aren't perfect in their lives. If we can do that then we can also accept that God wants to do the same through us, that even through our imperfections God wants to use us as an instrument in somebodyelse's life.

What's the most important thing about a package ... its whats inside right! Sure the packaging and the wrapping can make it more appealing, but if its only a beautiful box but with nothing inside whats the point. So its time we stopped analyzing the package's God sends the gifts in, and start accepting the precious gifts God wants to give us. Don't let superficial things stop you from receiving all that God has for you.

I know for myself it would be a waste of time to simply go to church to analyze someone, and I'm missing out on all that God has for me.

December 21, 2005

Service with a Smile

At the moment I'm leading an outreach team for 6 weeks in the province of NAN in Northern Thailand. It is the first time I've been 'the leader' of a team. Previously I've been a leader or staff on outreaches, but not 'the leader'. I've had leadership responsibilities but the responsibility of being the leader. When chosen as the leader for the team I immediately started doubting that I should be the leader. I mean wouldn't someone else do a better job, someone that would make less mistakes, that wouldn't lead these students down the wrong path. Oh man I don't want all this attention, everyone looking to me thats too much to take, too much responsibility.

... God however has reassured me that I'm the man for job, inadequacies and ALL!!
he wants to teach me something, He wants to change me, he wants to grow me, and he has to make me a leader in order to know how to really serve, and I need to respond and serve in order to really be a leader.

God doesn't want me to be a perfect leader with no flaws, I don't even have to be confident of where I'm leading the others, I just have to be confident in the one I'm following. And above all to serve with joy in the place that God has called me to be.
"Service with a Smile"

October 21, 2005

Something I'm not proud of

It has occured to me lately how much my flesh rules over me, on Fri last week I went to Mae Sai (Burmese border) to get another 3 month entry stamp for my visa, and it was a real rush getting there and back. And picked up some food really quickly before leaving to come back into Thailand, there were a bunch of homeless beggar kids, and they spotted the white guy and figured they'd found gold.

The first guy to come up to me saw that I had some food, and was pointing to that, but being so controlled by my flesh as I was I figured it would be better to give him some money as I was in a rush and wouldn't get a chance to get anything to eat for the next few hours. At the time I didn't think anything of it, until Wed, when reading the Matthew 5 and was majorly conviced by Jesus's radical teaching, about giving to all that ask, and I realised my error in just passing off the street boy, too concerned with meeting the desires of my own flesh.

Then another thing that stuck out to me how much my flesh controls me is that I slept in today, slept throught exercise. I let everyone down by not being there as we are all supposed to be there and as staff we are to set a good example.

But God is working in me and its taking some sacrifices to weaken the flesh.
The flesh has lost all its power over us, but often we give it power that it doesn't deserve to have.

September 02, 2005

Comfort Zone

I'm an easy going guy, and for the most part its an asset, especially here in Thailand, but being too easy going means I back away from the difficult or the uncomfortable

I love peace not confrontation, I love comfort not challenges
I love the fruits, but not the hard work
The thing is I'm the one missing out,
God has called me to do more than just the easy

As much as I want it too the Bible DOESN'T say
"All things will go easily for those who love the Lord"

Everythings is cruisy in my comfort zone
my comfort zone comprises of things that I've done before, things I know I can do, anything anytime anyplace where I am self-competent and self-confident.
I manage to hover around in this area alot, occasionally puting one foot out
God never intended for me to live here though

Its time to shift residency, its time to jump right out there into the unknown void of known as the "Uncomfortable Zone"
This zone comprises of things that I'm pretty sure I can't do, it comprises of relying on God ... and relying on Him for things that I never have before, to enable be to do things I've never done before, I don't even trust myself in this area to trust in God.

Its scary ... I mean 'theoretically' I know God will never me or forsake, 'theoretically' I know God is going to give me the words to speak, 'theoretically' I know God will be my source and my strength.
And all this theory is just great and oh so warm and nice, while sitting in the comfy comfort zone, but its a whole different ballgame in the 'uncomfortable zone' its now all I've got. I find myself scrambling around, trying to find something in my "I've done that before" toolbox to help but there's nothing.
The only thing I've got is God promises

Its time to get uncomfortable ... because while I'm comfortable I will only do whats easy, and if I do that then I'm not going to grow.
Its the difficult times that will grow me, its endurance and patience that leads to faith, a faith that is TRUE and not just 'theoretical'

August 22, 2005

Cultural emphasis

being in another culture really opens your eyes to alot of things ... and many times you have to go deep and look at some of your pre-programmed areas of your life and see whether or not they need re-programming.

This is just one area that I was challenged when I caught myself in a wrong mode of thinking yesterday.
Someone in a Thai youth service was teaching on the importance of dressing a certain way, not wearing sleeveless shirts, not wearing too much jewelry ... and I started to think how maby what they were sharing was not so important ... I mean in the west its not a big deal you can pretty much wear whatever you want these days when you goto church. In the west dress has somewhat become a non-issue. The the standards in some of the scriptures of the Bible are outdated and no longer good for use as a guideline today.

Then it hit me!! that this issue is really important here in Thailand... respect for authority, and respectful dress is something held in high regard. The teaching had seemed to me a little bit old fashion-ed because of our 'prgressed' thinking in the West... have really progressed though? its really a degression! we no longer place such an emphasis on this matter, and I had allowed that to shape my thinking, that there are more important things when going to church than how you dress.

But I realise now that it was I was wrong, not the Thais, instead of judgding I should be holding onto this gem captured in this wonderful culture.
The respect for God they show by coming to church in neat and respectful clothing, comes out of their respect for authority, something we in the West have basically thrown out the window.

Now though things seem to be changing with the younger generation here as well, the 'west' have alot to answer for in our influences of other nations.
The progression and advancements that they are learning from us the west are even taking away some of the beauty that God has placed in this culture.

This is not a 'bashing' the west session, but I did realise how I myself make wrong judgements.
None of us have it all togethor, and when we become Christians because of our cultural backgrounds we place more emphasis on different teachings in the Bible... they are all important as each other. We need to be careful not to think we already have an area covered and it doesn't need to be dealt with anymore.
We should keep checking ourselves up against the Word, and be open to those of other cultures who have so much to teach us, and because of the culture God has blessed them with, they have understanding of aspects of God and his truths that we don't.

If we really want to see God for all that he is, we also need to look at his reflections throughout his whole body, every nation, every tongue, every tribe ... and even then we will only have scratched the surface of seeing God in his wholeness.

August 06, 2005

No end in sight...

I'm completely amazed how anyone could be so selfish!!! ... so self-centred!!! Looking out for themselves before others, even to the extent of wishing for what is not rightfully there's! Being so holy on the outside but so full of deceit and selfish attitudes on the inside!!


... that person is me



As soon as I take my eyes off of Christ, my focus immediately turns to myself. Just a glimpse of the glory of God's face is enough to last me a life time, yet I turn at an instance I see something I like.
I utter things to God, such as "all things fade away when I'm with You", but I'm just like a prostitute who whispers sweet nothings to get what she wants.

The problem with me is my focus, I should have eyes for only one. My eyes should be set on Christ, but for a person as selfish as me this seems to be an unfavorable thing. It means sacrifice, it means giving up things that please me.

The very selfishness of my nature is hindering from me being less selfish.
The very thing I don't want to be is what I am. This condition seems to be worse than I thought. It causes more harm to others than I thought, It robs me of what God has for me more than I thought it could.

SELFISHNESS ... you and I are going to have to part ways, I'm sorry I once thought that we could be friends, but I now know that this is a destructive relationship. You are in fact a parasite causing harm to all that come into your reach.
You are a sword that destroys everything around me when in my grip.
I thought that I could control you, but all along it was you who was controlling me.
I had literally become you. No longer will I be entrapped in this deadly cycle of serving you, I will give up the the illusion of life and happiness, to have the Real Thing.

Thankyou God for showing me the light, and giving me a way out

July 26, 2005

thats not enough!?!

What do we mean when we tell God "All I need is you"?

Do you we really mean...
"God I need you and some money and then I'm prepared to go wherever you take me"
or "I can do anything with you and qualifications"
or whatabout "I can go anywhere and speak your truth, just give me better public speaking skills first"
how many times have we told God "I will follow you Lord, just let me do this first" (let me go bury my father)

we always find some excuse ...
But being relient on God nullifies our excuses for being inadequate for the job.
We will always be inadequate unless we rely soley on the One who is so much more than adequate!

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
Phil 4:13

God all I need is you

July 04, 2005

God speaks

I'm so blessed everytime that God speaks to me ... and I'm even more blessed when i actually listen :)

I was in church listening to a great sermon ... and though not directly related to what the preacher said, the Holy Spirit stirred in me and challenged with a simple statement

"Life is too short, to live for yourself"

People say to me from time to time, "why would you give up so much to do what you do"
but now I realize that I should be asking them "why would you give up so much to settle for 2nd best"